I was born in the capital of Kazakhstan, where my family's lives were strongly influenced by the collapse of the Soviet Union in 1991.  As the world began to open its borders, my mom saw a chance at a better life and filed for a green card. Soon after, our family of six left everything behind and moved to North Carolina.​

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A year later, we relocated to Virginia, where I spent the next 20 years living within a 30-mile radius. I was raised in a strict Christian Baptist household, immersed in the teachings of the Bible from a young age. As a child, I was already seeking something I couldn’t quite name; something pure and unwavering. I was searching for Unconditional Love and a true connection to Source.

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I was disciplined through a religion that indoctrinated me at a young age into believing I was a sinner deserving of hell. I repented earnestly, over and over again, accepting him as my Lord and Savior. Not once, not twice, but many, many times. I longed to believe with the certainty that everyone around me seemed to have. But deep down, I struggled to understand how a man who died on a cross two thousand years ago could save me from eternal hell that I was doomed to go to after death, and more importantly how this savior was going to help me with my overwhelming anxiety in the present moment. I wanted to feel it, to know it, but I could never know for sure if I believed in Jesus the "correct way".

 

Thus, the Joker Archetype was awakened deep within the very fibers of my being, revealing the staggering depth of the world's hypocrisy. What began as a quiet discomfort evolved into a fierce inner reckoning, as I peeled back the layers of illusion that society had so carefully constructed within and around me. With each revelation, the Joker within me laughed, not out of mockery, but out of the profound understanding that in a world built on contradictions and half-truths, humor became both a shield and a weapon. This archetype didn't just teach me to see the hypocrisy; it taught me to transcend it through play and laughter.

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My journey truly began when I divorced my religious, overcontrolling ex-husband of seven years, just one month after we relocated to Arizona. Over the following five years, I moved through six different homes, leaving a deep personal imprint across the city of Phoenix and reclaiming my power, piece by piece.

 

Those profound years in the desert brought life-changing transformations, ego-shattering initiations, and soul-deep connections that shaped me into who I am today. The desert taught me to trust that everything is always unfolding in my favor. I learned to use fear as a compass and to welcome change as one of my greatest allies. The desert gifted me tools for moving through life with grace, presence, and an unshakable inner flow.

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Three years into my life there, after experimenting with various party drugs and eventually shifting toward learning through altered states with LSD, DMT, mushrooms, Cannabis, and ketamine, Source gently guided me to the sacred path of plant medicine. From my very first Ayahuasca ceremony, something profound awakened within me. I became deeply devoted to the inner journey of finding my alignment with Source and obsessed with exploring the deepest fibers of my psyche. Nothing else held the same significance. My passion for walking this path consumed me, eclipsing all other interests. My corporate job, which once was my passion, became a pointless loop of boredom and doom.​

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I began drinking this sacred psychedelic brew with deep devotion several times a month, alongside a religious Ayahuasca community known as Santo Daime. The Daime medicine became my living university, teaching me how to embody Love while remaining grounded amidst the chaos of this dense world. Meanwhile, the Joker was slowly becoming more prevalent in my life. It relentlessly exposed the cracks in all systems, religions, beliefs, and societal programs, unmasking the ways they entangle the human ego in layers of hypocrisy and illusion. Hypocrisy is forced upon a human the moment they attach themselves to the illusion.

 

My external reality spiraled out of control once I stopped resisting and surrendered to the divine plan. However, my internal reality was only becoming more and more peaceful. With every ceremony, I would fall into a portal of unconditional love. It became clear that Love wasn’t just a feeling, it was a frequency, a way of being... a vibration to be in. I then made a vow to live in that vibration, to embody it fully, and to walk through life making decisions from that place of love. 

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Life before medicine felt linear, predictable, and mundane. But afterward, it became quantum. Time no longer moved in a straight line—it spiraled, folded, expanded. Time became the biggest giveaway of the divine simulation. In each present moment, ancient truths revealed themselves, like petals gently unfurling in perfect sequence, weaving their wisdom through the fibers of my reality.

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At first, those closest to me couldn’t understand. They called me lost, delusional, even addicted. I felt so alone and feared I was schizophrenic. But true transformation often looks like madness to those not walking the path.

 

In time, through the way I softened, showed up, and loved myself more freely, my family and friends began to witness the shift. Not in my words, but in the energy I brought into every situation, every interaction, and each of my relationships. The truth of my path began to speak for itself, and I received support and understanding from those I loved, which gave me all the confidence I needed, to speak more openly about these new concepts of reality.​​​

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During the wildest waves of COVID and the peak of my Saturn return, Source aligned everything with divine precision, guiding me to move to Mexico without a plan of my own. Trusting, I packed only what I needed, gave the rest to my closest friends, and surrendered to the unknown. Three weeks after saying yes to God's plan, I left the States with nothing but faith in my heart and an army backpack.

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I spent a year and a half living in one of the most enchanting cities in the heart of Mexico, just a short, four-hour bus ride from the vibrant pulse of CDMX, the seventh largest city in the world. There, my plant medicine journey deepened, as I immersed myself in the wisdom of various tribes, religions, medicine circles, healing traditions, and esoteric knowledge.

 

Mexico became sacred ground for me, a land where my connection to Source deepened and the foundation of my faith took root in something unshakable and eternal. I began speaking more openly about the truths I had once kept hidden—the teachings that Source had whispered to me throughout each of my ceremonies. Mexico uncovered self-confidence I thought I had lost forever.

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It was there that I turned 30. I marked the threshold of a new decade with a personal rooftop ceremony, surrounded by my closest friends, where I shaved my head completely bald. Spirit had clearly guided this initiation. With each lock that fell away, I shed seven years of deep personal work, and with it, lifetimes of weight. I emerged lighter, freer, and more aligned. A bald head unlocked a level of confidence in me and deeply changed how I loved myself. 

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Mexico embraced me with open arms, guiding me from one sacred space to the next, always rent-free, always divinely timed. I once lived in a breathtaking mansion on the most iconic street in San Miguel de Allende, resting in the master suite like it was always meant for me. I could have never arranged for it to happen so perfectly. It was all Source.

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When it was time to move forward, the Universe aligned a new soul who offered me a home in exchange for something far more valuable than money: my presence, my friendship, my connection to Source, and the healing energy I brought through deep conversation, yoga, and ceremony.

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It was then that I realized, this is exactly what I’m here to do. Spirit made it clear: this is my gift. I was never meant to live alone or move through the world unnoticed. I was meant to live with others, heart open, soul anchored, spirit shining, holding a safe space for others to shine their brightest. I was meant to be a really good best friend. The best yet.

 

This is the Bestie you will meet.  A heart-centered companion who brings warmth, depth, joy, and a strong presence of Love into your home. Not just as a guest, but as a mirror. A muse, a student, a real one.

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I don’t need to tell you what to fix or how to change. Simply by being together even for a weekend, you'll feel what you need to shift within your reality.

 

You’ll remember how to align yourself with Source, naturally. Effortlessly. Because that’s what happens when you're held in truth and in unconditional love. As your bestie, I offer a safe and sacred space. No judgments. No accusations. No expectations for you to be anything but fully, unapologetically you. It won't be easy, you will feel pushed and challenged like never before to step into your light, but this is what you want... Yes?

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The years I spent in South America following my time in Mexico were deeply immersive and soul-expanding. I was blessed to sit in countless plant medicine ceremonies with many different tribes, shamans, curanderos, practitioners, and even religious facilitators. Each experience opened a new portal, a new layer of remembrance and golden wisdom.

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Peru gifted me profound physical and emotional healing. In the Peruvian jungle is where I overcame a 15+ year battle with an eating disorder, restored my gut microbiome, and finally learned how to properly nourish my body with real nutrition. Because it was also in Peru that my fibromyalgia flared up, and I was forced to focus on healing and understanding my body.

 

I absorbed the lessons quickly, not because I am just that good, but because I was fully able to surrender to my journey. My only focus was healing and studying the inner landscapes of my psyche. I had no responsibilities, no bills, no drama. Everything, finances included, was divinely handled. God provided for all of my needs with grace and gifted me an unwavering support system.​​​​​​​​​​​​​​

 

I understood pretty early on that this lifetime as Lana, I arrived carrying a very light karmic load. The deep inner work of my past incarnations carved a clear path for this one. A perfect masterpiece of a life, delicately orchestrated to unfold with ease, grace, and joy, but with many difficult challenges. I was never meant to struggle here. I came to remember quickly, practice and embody it, and live boldly to show others this path of an effortless way of life. I can show you the path, because I know exactly where to find it.

 

Most people don’t even realize there’s a path to find. In our current reality, what actually matters is simple, and yet the majority will never understand it because it’s free. It’s accessible to everyone, yet most will never see it because it’s not tangible. People are far too concerned and preoccupied with the physical realm, completely neglecting an inner reality that is 100% responsible for creating their external reality. 

 

The ego loves to satisfy and be satisfied by the physical realm. The soul, however, desires something no one can see or touch. The soul desires to align with the body, and the mind (ego included), and have one epic life experience in this realm.

 

In truth, all I do is...nothing. I simply am. I live in a state of faithful allowing, of effortless receiving and detaching, in full harmony with life’s natural rhythm. This is the way of The Tao — the sacred art of harmonizing with life rather than struggling against it.

 

I live in pure delusion. From the outside, it appears as chaos, but to me it is divine clarity: that everything, everywhere, is always working in my favor, realigning me with Love, with truth, and with the next perfect unfolding as long as I fully surrender and trust.

 

This sacred way of being is what I will show you. Not through striving, hustling, or performance, but through the quiet, magnetic power of authenticity. I will guide you to receive all that your soul longs for, not by fixing yourself, but by coming home to who you already are, underneath all the false beliefs and programs that are weighing you down. I want to witness the energetic light being that you are, underneath this dense layer of meat and bones. 

 

Life meets you with wonder when you live from that place, your purest essence. Doors open. Miracles become normal every day happenings. And you become the most magnetic, unforgettable presence in any room.

 

I'm absolutely thrilled you've made it this far into my story. This is just the beginning.

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The real magic, the impossible synchronicities, the way Source lovingly choreographs every moment and connection for you going forth… Those stories are best reserved for our private chat, which will help you unlock your own new realizations and elevated states of consciousness.

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Every connection is unique, sacred, and valuable.

 

If you're feeling the pull, let’s connect and see if I’m the bestie you've been looking for.  ​​​​